love has a reason
there's a meaning to the world
-gavin degraw
[chariot]
some days i despise children.
but most days they just make me laugh.
some days i'm completely drained of energy.
but most days i run around until the sun sets.
some days i yearn for summer.
but most days i really enjoy the time with my students.
i think those kids are getting to me....
yesterday i had been talking about this one little boy - he's a 5th grader with a whole ton going on ... he's got an extreme learning disability coupled with one of the worst-managed cases of ADHD and a dad who doesn't know how to be a parent because he's too busy doing meth. his arm is in a cast from a missed bike jump, yet he was rollerblading home last week. his everything is dirty, his mouth is always moving, and he hasn't had a haircut since i met him.
in short, i really like this kid. (disclaimer: obviously i really like all my students, however, this one is such a heartbreaking case that i can't help but dwell upon it.)
since he was on my mind, naturally, i dreamed that this child had been shot. i woke up in tears, only to realize that it was, fortunately, just a dream. one that is truly indicative of my feelings that this child has been victimized in the worst way: neglect, and my own feelings of helplessness in this situation.
having this dream made me realize that there really is a fine line that teachers walk between doing what you are supposed and doing "too much." it's hard to tell the difference some days.
St. Theresa wrote something that i think is not only remarkably appropriate, but also makes me think that she and i would have been besties if she were alive today.
grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
i'm going to re-title this "The Teacher's Prayer."
only 2 more mondays, 3 more WRATs, 6 more DIBELS, and 14 more teaching days until summer.
this month is flying.
i'm gonna go catch it.
peace.
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